Skurup?
It is time to start thinking about with schools to start next autumn, and my first choice is Skurups College (folkhögskola)..
My teacher told me that her son is a student at Skurup College and that he really enjoy it. I'm naturally going to choose the music-education.
It's not far from here at all so I hope everything will work out, getting accepted, making economical ends meet. Well all in good time..
It's not far from here at all so I hope everything will work out, getting accepted, making economical ends meet. Well all in good time..
please let me sleep!
I am so sick of my nightmares now.. School tomorrow and I dare not go to sleep, I dare not dream any more..
There is no say what is reality and what is fantasy any more, everything feels so REAL, the pain, I even wake up and I feel like everything has been ripped out of my chest and the terrible cramps in my stomach..
When you where here holding me telling me it's a dream, hugging me until I fall asleep once again, it's not that bad, but to wake up and not be sure if you truly are gone or not is the worst feeling in the world...I have become mentally numb, I have no strength to fight and protect myself from the pain..
There is no say what is reality and what is fantasy any more, everything feels so REAL, the pain, I even wake up and I feel like everything has been ripped out of my chest and the terrible cramps in my stomach..
When you where here holding me telling me it's a dream, hugging me until I fall asleep once again, it's not that bad, but to wake up and not be sure if you truly are gone or not is the worst feeling in the world...I have become mentally numb, I have no strength to fight and protect myself from the pain..
B&J moment
loooove strawberry cheesecake!!
Hööööme!
I am home now....the feeling of accomplishment is in my thoughts! oddly enough!
@ Hilda's
I truly am the pancake master!! Making pancakes at Hildas' place!
I am the most gorgeous carrot pancake master you will ever see and I'll show you pictures later!!
I am the most gorgeous carrot pancake master you will ever see and I'll show you pictures later!!
the pictures are up on the picture page!
Tea- and cookie Sunday!
Trying to get a hold of Hilda since y cell is not working! I got a hold of her, but as soon as I talked to her she logged offline. So tell me WHAT am I to do? ^^
<--------------- The Picture is from last years tour week!!
<--------------- The Picture is from last years tour week!!
Sunday morning
I just woke up, had a hard time sleeping tonight, though it's more that I slept uneasily. I kept thinking about how my friends from before see me. You see before I started high school I was the aggressive one who simply enough was only trying to protect her self from those who took advantage of her weakness ( in short, The Bullies).. But I am a changed person, I don't hit people on purpose or to be mean (only by accident), and I mean not to be rude or disrespectful, I really am who I am trying to be, the one who loves everyone and everything, who is So happy to be alive and so grateful to have friends like mine..I'm only trying to fight away my shell I have been locked in for so long.. My previous habits are not my own, simply a reflection of how I used to feel inside..
And I do hope those I have hurt by my reflex - behaviour forgive me and understand that, that is not the person I AM, not the person I am trying to be nor the person I want to be!
Forgive me!
And I do hope those I have hurt by my reflex - behaviour forgive me and understand that, that is not the person I AM, not the person I am trying to be nor the person I want to be!
Forgive me!
Sleepless, rainy, autumn nights!
If I have one of these nights I usually watch a film. And i got a few films I'd like to recommend if you are in a state where you will need something uplifting. A cute little film called "Amelie from Montmartre" and "Hunting and gathering" (original title: ensemble c´est tout).. Bout staring Audrey Tautou!! Cute films filled with mysteries and life!
Everything is worth fighting for!
You just have to believe in it..
You just have to believe in it..
How to make pancakes!
half past eleven in the evening I felt like making pancakes! So at first you make the batter ------->
Then you eat the first one so that you can make sure it's edible ...
Then you almost burned one..but WAIT it turned out OK!! ----------->
Then you wait for the rest to get well done!..boring...NOW, you are finally finished and ready to dine!! Good Job!
Pretty Princess!
Am I the only one who thinks Fiona is prettier as an ogre than a human?
I think she looks more alive and have more charisma!
I'd rather look like an ogre than human in her case!
I go Veggie ^^
It happens sometimes that things turn out wrong ^^ And this time a certain me, turned out like a carrot with outgrowth, yaaay! Well I'll try to live with it a while until I can afford new color.. Gaahhhhh! This certainly is a B&J moment!!
<-------- Not to happy! I hope there's no hungry rabbits
around!!
Killing some time!
If you have nothing to do I suggest something like, tea, candy and a film.. Right now I am watching Shrek 1,2 & 3 and then it's my favourite film; DunderKlumpen!!! ♥
Nature products for the win!
Well I dared my mother to help me dye my hair and she'll never do it again... It turned out like mud, thick mud that smelled and looked like pooh!! I have POOH in my hair ha ha lovely!
I'll ask someone who's done it before next time so that I am sure we get it right, I really hope it turns out well, anyhow I'm going to watch a film while waiting for the henna to do it's THING!
I'll ask someone who's done it before next time so that I am sure we get it right, I really hope it turns out well, anyhow I'm going to watch a film while waiting for the henna to do it's THING!
Groovy!!!!
So.., got a lot done today, went to IKEA with my parents, bought oriental lilies at COOP and henna at LIFE-store (copper red and dark copper red).
I need to do something with my hair and at the same time it need some nurturing so henna is the peeeerfeect!! thing to use, and it's half the cost in comparison to the hair dyeing products in the local stores..
Took a break from the laundry cleaning...boring...almost done...but still boring..
I need to do something with my hair and at the same time it need some nurturing so henna is the peeeerfeect!! thing to use, and it's half the cost in comparison to the hair dyeing products in the local stores..
Took a break from the laundry cleaning...boring...almost done...but still boring..
Autumn break is officially over...
OK so Saturday, and autumn break is through, Felix has gone home to sleep in his OWN bed for the weekend (buhu for me).. Thinking about going to IKEA with my mother and father and then when we get home I'll clean up the mess in the laundry ( earn some money!!).
Went through the pictures we took at Malte's birthday party and I could not find any that he was in! ^^ But I think if I can find the video we'll find him dancing to Hilda and co's music performance!!
NOW, lets find some clothes!
Went through the pictures we took at Malte's birthday party and I could not find any that he was in! ^^ But I think if I can find the video we'll find him dancing to Hilda and co's music performance!!
NOW, lets find some clothes!
keep me safe!
had one of my worst nightmares yesterday night and started crying and
I didn't know what to do until Felix woke me up, since I woke him up, and told me everything was OK, asking me what was wrong. Then he held me until I fell asleep and I have not slept that calm for ages!!
He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and this Friday he has been MY knight in shiny armour for 3 months ♥
I didn't know what to do until Felix woke me up, since I woke him up, and told me everything was OK, asking me what was wrong. Then he held me until I fell asleep and I have not slept that calm for ages!!
He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and this Friday he has been MY knight in shiny armour for 3 months ♥
Please don't leave..
Having trouble sleeping again, nightmares..
I feel so helpless, in the way and annoying, I love him so much I barely know how to handle it myself, and every night I wake up feeling the tight grip of panic, "please tell me you did not leave".. I know he loves me but I can not make the nightmares go away.. How come he chose me, I can not get it through my stupid head.. I'm neither smart nor beautiful still he sees me that way, and I am trying to understand 'cause I want him to stay, more than anything.
And... I Love Him ♥
I feel so helpless, in the way and annoying, I love him so much I barely know how to handle it myself, and every night I wake up feeling the tight grip of panic, "please tell me you did not leave".. I know he loves me but I can not make the nightmares go away.. How come he chose me, I can not get it through my stupid head.. I'm neither smart nor beautiful still he sees me that way, and I am trying to understand 'cause I want him to stay, more than anything.
And... I Love Him ♥
Blah!
Been in bed all day, naturally I feel restless so tomorrow I am going to bake or something else I might find amusing!
Got any tips about any good films? I think I have gone through most of mine and I want to see something new! Like a British comedy perhaps?
Got any tips about any good films? I think I have gone through most of mine and I want to see something new! Like a British comedy perhaps?
Love!!
The last two days F has had a terrible fever and got me quite worried a while, he has been troubled by headaches and well been a bit disoriented, so last night we walked home, 11.30 p.m. from Erik's place, and it cooled him down a bit.. At least his fever has gone down and everything that is left is his headache!
I woke up next to him this morning and felt I was truly the happiest girl on earth and there is nothing I would not do for this boy! At eleven we made breakfast and then we went to bed again. We just woke up at 2.58 p.m.
I woke up next to him this morning and felt I was truly the happiest girl on earth and there is nothing I would not do for this boy! At eleven we made breakfast and then we went to bed again. We just woke up at 2.58 p.m.
Oh the waiting'...
Felix told me he was leaving home in a few minutes and then he'll take his bike to my place, that was 30 minutes ago...it takes 10 minutes to ride a bike here.. I am bored and I need a hug! ♥
F just turned up, apparently he walked all the way from his house with my granddads stationary hard drive!
Final day..
Sadly enough today was the last day of tour week.
The gig went better than ever! got a really sweet compliment from Julius :)
Met up with Malte and Felix at the bus station and my gorgeous boy had bought my favourite schampoo!!
Home at the moment, just got out of the shower, smelling like wild strawberries!! ♥
The gig went better than ever! got a really sweet compliment from Julius :)
Met up with Malte and Felix at the bus station and my gorgeous boy had bought my favourite schampoo!!
Home at the moment, just got out of the shower, smelling like wild strawberries!! ♥
Emma Guiomar!
This is one of my closest friends and today...it her BIRTHDAY!!!
Happy Birthday my love! Hope you have a nice day ♥
Happy Birthday my love! Hope you have a nice day ♥
[23:37:04] aalsklingFail-ix ♥ : fattar du inte att jag tycker du är det bästa som finns och hur glad jag är att du tycker om mig? <3
I think he's trying to make my cry on purpose some times!! <3
I think he's trying to make my cry on purpose some times!! <3
Tour week!
our penultimate day of tour week has come to it's end! Everything well well we had so much fun and we made some minor but hilarious mistakes! Woo ho!!
Everyone is getting more and more exhausted each day and tomorrow is the final day, and to everyone's relief there is nothing but a whole of autumn break ahead of us!
Our last gig was at Spångskolan in Bara, so i went to my grandparents place after everything was packed into our vans again. Grandma' made me waffles with berries and ice cream, felt spoiled as never before ;)
Everyone is getting more and more exhausted each day and tomorrow is the final day, and to everyone's relief there is nothing but a whole of autumn break ahead of us!
Our last gig was at Spångskolan in Bara, so i went to my grandparents place after everything was packed into our vans again. Grandma' made me waffles with berries and ice cream, felt spoiled as never before ;)
The pictures below are from one of our tea&cookie-Sundays! There are more pictures of me and Hilda under the pictures-tab! We had so much fun and we named the tree we are climbing in "Astrid" and the other tree (which is not in any of the pictures I believe) is called Albert (I think it was Albert)...
Well well we had so much fun, and I siply adore her garden and the colourful light bulbs hanging in the trees!
well I guess it's a new halloween-tea&cookie-sunday this week!
I can not wait!
Well well we had so much fun, and I siply adore her garden and the colourful light bulbs hanging in the trees!
well I guess it's a new halloween-tea&cookie-sunday this week!
I can not wait!
Tired..
I guess I am in a period of self loathing at the moment, I am so sick of my own reflection I am avoiding the mirrors in my house. My hair is torn, my eyes are tired and grey, I am not anywhere near the body that is GOOD for me even less beautiful.. I am so tired and I just want to sleep through everything!
hOME!
Got home an hour ago, or so. I was supposed to work out but forgot my shoes and decided to go out for a long walk with Maja instead, and later tonight I'm going out for a power walk with Hilda!
The tour gig today went well but things could have run more smoothly. Lunch ( / breakfast) just got ready, rice and bacon ^^
Can not wait for next week, autumn break!!
Finally it is raining, I love watching old black&white films as the rain is smashing against my window, Ops almost forgot...TEA!!! have some new flavours I have to try!
The tour gig today went well but things could have run more smoothly. Lunch ( / breakfast) just got ready, rice and bacon ^^
Can not wait for next week, autumn break!!
Finally it is raining, I love watching old black&white films as the rain is smashing against my window, Ops almost forgot...TEA!!! have some new flavours I have to try!
- Hi again, couldn't sleep though I am tired..keep getting these regurgitations (sorry if that grossed you out).. Really am not feeling OK but I can not stay home from our tour week! I'm just hoping it will stop asap. don't want to be ill neither sick in the morning!!...
- I just have to work out tomorrow!!, otherwise my plan of a new life is screwed, and I don't like that ending very much!
- keep thinking of Felix and how lucky I am to be with him, and I miss him every minute with every fibre in body!!
He should be here holding me in his arms, pull his fingers through my hair and tell me it is all going to be al right! ♥But I am so proud of him for really studying! I know he doesn't have to because he's intelligent enough for 6 people all together!
sleepless in....Svedala?
Cant sleep...
Time for BED!! ♥
before I fall asleep on the living room floor..
SWEET DREAMS! ♥
SWEET DREAMS! ♥
Autumn evening!
I can not recall the last time I felt this relaxed and content, first day of tour week went great!
But I still have this unsettled feeling in me, like I want to have the motivation to go out and do something, to feel the urge to work out at least 3 times a week, to feel in control of my life and be able to look back and say "I am proud of myself, of what I have accomplished".. So tomorrow my new life is beginning, work out and spending more time doing other than glue myself to the keyboard!! I know everybody says I'm going to do it, I'm going to make it.. And I am not saying it wont be difficult but I have to make it, I mean I am eating candy though I feel nauseous each time I think of eating it...
Things need to change, and I am going to be the one who will change it!
But I still have this unsettled feeling in me, like I want to have the motivation to go out and do something, to feel the urge to work out at least 3 times a week, to feel in control of my life and be able to look back and say "I am proud of myself, of what I have accomplished".. So tomorrow my new life is beginning, work out and spending more time doing other than glue myself to the keyboard!! I know everybody says I'm going to do it, I'm going to make it.. And I am not saying it wont be difficult but I have to make it, I mean I am eating candy though I feel nauseous each time I think of eating it...
Things need to change, and I am going to be the one who will change it!
ME!
Hi my name's Ellen, but my friends call me Eliot. I'm Swedish but I prefer too use English when I write!
The boy against my lips is my boyfriend Felix! And has been for three months 5 of November.
Just turned 18, 12Th of October.
I'm creating this page too express myself, and these are the basics. Don't drink, do NOT smoke, I LOOOOOOVE flowers!
The boy against my lips is my boyfriend Felix! And has been for three months 5 of November.
Just turned 18, 12Th of October.
I'm creating this page too express myself, and these are the basics. Don't drink, do NOT smoke, I LOOOOOOVE flowers!
Haha maybe it's a bit childish and egotistic to take pictures of yourself in the mirror but I had to show you what I did to my hair! I usually have too thick and heavy hair to be able to do anything but I managed to do this with only two strips (in Swedish that means "stickor")..
Felix just stopped by and had some tea with me, since he's got homework he headed back home again.
Tomorrow is the second day of our tourweek and we have only one gig, in Malmö. That means that I'm off at half past ten! Thinking about going to the gym and maybe buy some yarn for my brain monster-hat I am knitting!
I hope it doesn't take too long to ake it since I do not have the highest of patience-level.. But it will be fun!!
Felix just stopped by and had some tea with me, since he's got homework he headed back home again.
Tomorrow is the second day of our tourweek and we have only one gig, in Malmö. That means that I'm off at half past ten! Thinking about going to the gym and maybe buy some yarn for my brain monster-hat I am knitting!
I hope it doesn't take too long to ake it since I do not have the highest of patience-level.. But it will be fun!!
